BDEBSKI

REALIXATION er REALIZATION

I am a dreamer...

One who has believed

that I would

gracefully overcome

the psychological abnormality

I have developed over the past

half century.

I say this because

I have defeated myself

with inbred stubbornness

not recognizing

'the helping hands'

that may of taken me

to a more successful path in life.

I have recounted my past

a myriad of times,

thinking myself into a state

of expressionistic quandary.

Everyone is troubled at times,

I would have thought I could become

overwhelmingly optimistic

once leaving the cold east coast,

returning to the 'warm' west coast.

My impulsiveness throughout my life

proved itself to lead toward

personal haplessness.

Attempts to reach a comfortable lifestyle

without being sidetracked by all the evil

that surrounds us daily has led me to believe

that I was never meant to be

successful in my latter years...

I am believing that I am a social misfit

who actually thinks if you treat others

as you would want to be treated,

all would go well.

I think... and I hurt because I think~

without taking action or go through life

waywardly hoping that dreams

will actually come true...

One must make them happen...

I have yet to make the

important dreams happen.

I refuse to manipulate people

for any reason

especially to become prosperous.

I offered all of myself in the past,

and may have turned those away

because I did so.

I am writing now because I can...

soon there may come a day

when I will no longer

be able to express myself.

I am not quite sure

of how to continue with myself

at this particular moment,

But, I am conquering my faults

and actually accepting the things

I cannot change.

Courage in oneself

at these critical crossroads

of emotional distress must be mustered

in order to fulfill our destiny.

Yea, though I walk through the

Valley Of Death, I will fear no evil,

... don't ask... just a passing thought.

republished from an earlier time

Untitled Excerpt

I breathe the air with a renewal

Of all that there is to breathe.

I savor the freshness of this life

Without the shadow of grief.

I've walked alone to long my friend

And now I seek the happy end.

While I survey the coastal water,

I learn where I did falter.

Never again my friend

will I speak crudely

Of individuals who have

treated me quite rudely.

Instead I will hold my head high

And shed no tears or repeat the lies~

Which I bellowed in my sorted past.

And shed the remorse given so crass~

And now my friend

the time is near,

That I walk again

with those who are clear.

Trends come and go

as time evenly flows

Past the swamp foliage

along the declining landscape.

Have you heard?

I have nothing more to say

that hasn't already been said,

of politics, government, welfare

or of the color red.

I have more to say of nothing

That undoubtedly could improve

our currently used thoroughfares

where all to many have bled.

I would like to slip into incognito

And never have met poverty or strife

I would like to listen to the evening

Away from the vast city lights.

I have more to say of nothing,

For I believe nothing is all I know,

Despite the wonderments of fifty years,

I have little or nothing to show.

I have nothing more to say

That hasn't already been uttered.

When or where doesn't matter,

Nor how your toast is buttered.

ABOUT ME

I thought I was of optimistic view, but after reading what I've written I can see that that isn't quite true. Alas, the years have diminished the ambitious young man who once had thought of many things to make our lives so grand. I've been known to be upstanding, forthright and an honest fellow. I was once thought of as energetic, even when feeling quite mellow. I was once thought of as a crazy man with an imagination profound. I was thought of as innovative , inventing stories to astound. I was once thought of as conceited, selfish and overbearing. I once was thought of outrageous while searching for the great herring. I was once thought of as a good Samartatin who helped those in their need, and I was once thought of as compassionate but now just a word to read. I was once in love with life while searching for a wife, I once thought of so many things, it's just to much to write. For those who have known me, many of these thoughts are true, even though they are my thoughts, you may have had a similiar view. I ramble about myself to much and it really gets me down. It seems that I have lost touch with all the happenings around. I shy away from the milling crowds, and very few people now I meet. I walk along the Pacific coast daydreaming thoughts incomplete. I have lost sight of so much to live for when I see couples hand in hand. I feel saddened for all the children that are playing in the sand, knowing that they grow up to soon and get sucked into the master plan. I know this all sounds so pitiful, but it comes from mind to hand.

Try if you will to shape your life socially, if only for a fragment of time. Loneliness leads to depression which breeds an unhealthy mind. Do not seclude yourself inside a bubble for you will surely be left behind. This is my current ramble and now I shall depart, leaving you with just one thought, live life with an open heart.

Taurimini rambles on

Sing a song, joyful, robust

Sing a song America

of love, of honor and of trust.

made in the USA

rambling at the shore:

We have thoughts and sometimes dream,

OF A SISTER PLANET MUCH MORE SERENE

MORE DOCILE WITH LESS PREDATORY MIRTH

AS WE EXPERIENCE DAILY HERE ON EARTH.

WE EXPLORE THE UNKNOWN BOTH NEAR AND FAR

WITHIN OUR OCEANS, AMONG THE STARS.

WE QUEST ANOTHER WORLD FOR DOMINATION

FOR WE HAVE CULTIVATED THIS PLANET, AN ABOMANATION

PROLIFERATED BY PERMISQUEST PROPAGATION.

SHATTERED ARE THE VISIONS OF A GLOBAL NATION

AND NOW, WITH TECHNOLOGICAL INNOVATIONS

WE ATTEMPT TO CULTIVATE INTERPLANETARY MIGRATION,

AND OUR HABITAT DEMINISHES TOWARD DISSINTAGRATION,

ATTEMPTING TO CREATE UTOPIAN URBANIZATION.

WE HAVE HOPES AND DEVISE NEW SCHEMES

MANY OF WHICH PROTRAY OUR DREAMS

OF BUILDING SOCIETIES OF PEACEFUL CO-EXISTANCE\~

OFTEN THWARTED BY IGNORANT RESISTANCE..

PROLIFERATED BY PERMISQUEST PROPAGATION.

SHATTERED ARE THE VISIONS OF A GLOBAL NATION

AND NOW, WITH TECHNOLOGICAL INNOVATIONS

WE ATTEMPT TO CULTIVATE INTERPLANETARY MIGRATION,

AND OUR HABITAT DEMINISHES TOWARD DISSINTAGRATION,

ATTEMPTING TO CREATE UTOPIAN URBANIZATION.

COMPLICATED WITH THEORIES OF MANY EVALUATIONS

SOME OF WHICH LIE IN CLOSETS OF MEDITATION~

WHATEVER WE THINK AND WHATEVER WE DREAM~

REMEMBER WE MUST TO NURTURE THE UNSEEN.

( a work in progress, collaberation welcomed )

PROLIFERATED BY PERMISQUEST PROPAGATION.

SHATTERED ARE THE VISIONS OF A GLOBAL NATION

AND NOW, WITH TECHNOLOGICAL INNOVATIONS

WE ATTEMPT TO CULTIVATE INTERPLANETARY MIGRATION,

AND OUR HABITAT DEMINISHES TOWARD DISSINTAGRATION,

ATTEMPTING TO CREATE UTOPIAN URBANIZATION.

Robert Debski

GOOD WAVES THIS MORNING

They both lost control in the watery wake

Neither one grimaced as their wave escaped

Counting the swells they venture west

Awaiting, patiently to catch one that's best.